insight in my life as of now....

Okay, this has been annoying me a lot lately... (john & i talk complain about this all the time)
So i am now commuting a longer drive from Miramar to Santee. Well i get off work during the peak hours of traffic. (this has nothing to do with it, but moreso traffic) Anyways, now im constantly stuck in traffic and it makes me think WHY IN THE WORLD DO WE HAVE TRAFFIC! i understand if there are accidents, etc. but the traffic that just disappears in thin air makes me OHH so angry. do i make sense? those are the traffics that you think is a big accident and then you drive a mile down and realize that theres no traffic and everyones all off a sudden going 80 mph. WTFREAK...

(Inhale, EXHALE....) actually, it was more of a huge bite out of my mini apple, but thats beside the point. :]

Yesterday at 1825:Young Adult Cafe, we learned about taking risks with God. How we as Christians, are afraid to take risks and play it safe, because we think God will punish us. But we have to have faith, which allows us to take risks and chances. And as Christians we are called out to do so...Danny did an amazing job :] i totally related to his personal testimony about his mom, because of my dad...made it that more intense. sigh, also it brought back memories of my uncle, jun-hee. :[ Gosh, i miss him so much. And it sucks that i will never be able to see him again. I still struggle knowing that a lot of my loved ones that did pass, did not know God. My favorite Uncle, just gone...how can i try to justify that God wanted him and had plans with him, if he's not even in Heaven. But everything happens for a reason, and i guess i will find out when the time comes for me to leave this place.
Anyways...

Im super excited for the weekend. Its pretty jam packed!! Tomorrow, i have Vision Night for the Pebbles Pathway (the ministry im in). Then im going to Laura's bday party at the Hard Rock in downtown. Than on Saturday & Sunday going to the desert to go ride. :] i havent gone riding since summer. so im super stoked about getting back on a bike. woohoo. well anyways, im pretty tired so im going to hit the sack early. :]

night eveyone...

"I guess what I'm trying to say is, I don't think you can measure life in terms of years. I think longevity doesn't necessarily have anything to do with happiness. I mean happiness comes from facing challenges and going out on a limb and taking risks. If you're not willing to take a risk for something you really care about, you might as well be dead." --Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider, Northern Exposure, Northern Lights, 1993

new beginnings.

Saturday was my last day at Grossmont. :[

I am "moving" up, supposedly to Miramar. Hopefully, things will run smoothly and i will catch on fast. Im really going to miss my co-workers are Gmont thought.

Im going to miss James's, crazy, hippy way at looking into life. He's always an inspiration and kept me strong and brought me down a notch when need be. He was my run too talk to about my problems guy, and he always was right. :] im going to miss that old man.

sigh, but i will not miss the annoying retail customers that come in demanding that i pick out a whole color scheme for their interior and exterior of their house. Hello, i just mix your paint...

I finally saw snow weds. i think its been about 6 years or so since ive seen snow. its been awhile. As you can see the wonderful lovely pic above of this post. :] its probably on of my recent fav of us. i dont have much pics of recently, its a shame...but under the circumstances it makes sense. Hopefully, ill be able to take more pics of us soo. :] sigh. anyways, it was great. i felt amazing to be in the snow "away" from the city and just be a part of nature. We went sledding and ate massive crap and we were soaked, well i was. But it was all worth it. way worth it. It was nice being able to share something fun and wonderful with a special person. i hope there will be more to come.

ive been praying hard. and ive been praying a lot.

i just hope that God, will be able to help me continue my faith in this world and in my life.

because there are days where i feel so alone and weak. i feel that nothing's going the way its supposed to. and i feel like giving up because literally whats the point. and today was exactly that kind of day. So i pray that i will be able to let go and believe.

if anyone has any prayer requests, feel free to let me know. :]

ps. does anyone know how to beat the strawberry samurai in Wario's Smooth Moves in the WII?

turn up the music...

i hope that everyone had an amazing valentines day. id like to believe that everyday is a day where you shower your partner with love. however, i believe that this holiday is not just a day for floral shops, jewelers, chocolate, and high end resturants to make money. because when you are in a relationship you get comfortable. and when you get comfortable, guess what happens. you start to take things for granted, you forget to compliment, and encourage. valentines day is a day where one can step back and realize, and once again "spark" the relationship. its a good thing to have...
my valentines day went well. i got to spend time with the most amazing person in the world. we got starbucks and watched Gran Torino, an amazing movie by the way. i couldnt ask for a better valentines day. :]

last week, i helped belle redecorate her room. we painted, rearraged, and the whole nine yards. i decided that it was finally time for me to rearrange my rooms, and put stuff away. so i did. :] my room looks so much more spacious and im happy!! additionally, my dad bought me a 32" flat screen tv and a wii. :] actually, i have to pay him back for the wii but whatever. im having fun. my parents have mii characters, its too cute. if anyone knows any fun games let me know. im really trying to save up for Rock Band. thats my ultimate dream game. i drool thinking about playing that game. hahaha how sad.

but thats it for now. good night everyone. & remember tomorrow's a new day.